ANOTHER LOOK - Fall 1990 Silence Nothings come The moon is hanging The sky above The clouds are drifting Now, your laughing at me Now, I see your laughing at me Take a look again Take my hand Take another look tonight Oh I'll take the consequences Time won't lead to new romances To wait and to hope a smile the only fortune I want to hold you near me tonight Hold me close and never let me go Tonight your in my arms forever Tonight your in my arms forever Please remember the times we shared And the times we cared Please don't turn away Although nothing here has ever stayed I'm still fallen in black and white My love for you won't ever die Tonight your in my arms forever Tonight your in my arms forever Return to Table of Contents BIG BLACK DREAM - June 11, 1990 Everything is so strange When your wondering how to be When your living life Oh, so desperately And you try to find And you try to find yourself Then turn around and you'll be where You've got to be You've got to swear It's something And you've got to remain my friend You've got to find yourself You've got to find yourself You've got to find yourself In this big black dream When I was younger So much younger than today I swore I wouldn't do half the things That I regret I do today You've got to find yourself You've got to find yourself You've got to find yourself In this big black dream Slowly, I remember Tell me, to remember Remind me, to surrender You've got to find yourself You've got to find yourself You've got to find yourself In this big black dream You've got to find yourself You've got to find yourself You've got to find yourself In this big black dream Return to Table of Contents NEVER CHANGE WITHOUT YOU August 8, 1990 The world will never change When your watching as it's revolving Through time and through your life It happens mostly when your not watching Like a picture screen The images stand corrected As they may stand in your mind But, you should know That these things just aren't that kind I would always try to hard to please you Every part of you and every part of me I always question whether it Was really inside of this body And to this day I have kept searching Turn I'm never gonna change without you Now turn I'll never want to change without you deep in my heart Turn I'll always think the same about you Turn I never want to live without you by my side Return to Table of Contents MATTER OF GAMES (HIGH ABOVE THE SKIES) - MARCH 17, 1990 Time won't end any stories Wrestling through the day and night alone High above in the stories Clouds go lingering by your sight And you know it's not for you And I begin to wonder How it all became so familiar to me And you know I wasn't sure Of the times I came to your door It be so pure for me Because it's all just a matter of games And it's all, It's all just a matter of games High above It's all just a matter of games It's all just a matter of games High above the skies And I found it wasn't right for me at all It wasn't right for me It wasn't right for you At all High above the skies High above the skies High above the skies Return to Table of Contents INSIDE MAN - May 17, 1990 If you kissed her I've gotten further than that I'm her inside man And tells me all upon demand On afternoons you may have forgotten When lust grew fast I stand by the windows And watch from within Memories that fade on you Remain to stay with me I've gotten further than that I'm her inside man Those lies upon the doorstep As the sun began up the skies Drove you away from her arms A deep creature in disguise And she closed the door On a long thought she lingered Or so you may believe For I know her better than that I'm her inside man She's just the same for you As she once told of me Return to Table of Contents IT'S ONLY ME - February 11, 1990 Talk to me, don't laugh at me Your walking around so quietly You know what I want to share with you When You walk in to my world And in the silence of my room We worked so quietly through our past we had together And you know that I could go through anything And I would hope for anything But you bewildered me And you know that I wanted you And you know what I wanted to say to you In the darkness of the night It's only me I cannot disagree It's only me I cannot be so free It's only me I cannot disagree When the marching starts I'll be there With the coming cold I'll be where You've held me all my life It's something of a big surprise When I played late nights by the fireside And you know it's only me I cannot disagree It's only me I cannot be so free It's only me I cannot disagree And you know it's only me I cannot disagree It's only me How can you love me It's only me I cannot disagree And you know it's only me I cannot disagree It's only me I cannot be so free It's only me How could I disagree Return to Table of Contents TIME TO LEAVE AND REMEMBER - JUNE 5, 1990 It's funny how some things tend to hide in disguise Lying low in your thoughts until the day that it is over And you thought you wouldn't hide this way In the dark a light will shine And your eyes will tend to follow Even at the times you feel fine Your strength will say it's over When it comes time Time to leave and remember You will find you'd want it back And you don't know why Deep in your heart You'll know that it's over Deep in your heart it is I Time to leave and remember Leave and remember Leave and surrender Leave and remember Leave and surrender It's funny how you laughed at my ways Even when it hurt you But you tried not to fray And now you strike the hurt right back And I will suffice for I deserve it So open up your mouth And let your words come out If your thoughts strike hard and so desire Your strength will tell me it's over Return to Table of Contents UNDER THE SPYING GLASS - August 3, 1990 In the vicinity of my present life I feel the presents of spying eyes I am in the situation Of ones investigation So far and almost quite as clear I am an insect with eight legs Prying my way under the spying glass It's almost impossible to do no wrong In a world that rises before the dawn Even the insects in a quiet sleep spread their wings to die in a sudden and misbounded leap Yes my friends, my innocent friends Tie yourself up and close your eyes When I fell the presents of spying eyes Your life is not yours as much as it is mine It's just that we are under the spying glass Being watched by prying eyes We're being watched by prying eyes In this world of trying times Under the spying glass we shall crawl One by one we shall meet with our demise Come with me now, and watch me shiver Being watched by preying eyes Under the spying glass we shall quiver Return to Table of Contents IN SOME STRANGE MANNER - May 4, 1990 Sometimes in some strange manner The language that I write Appears so foreign to me when I speak Twisted in our tongues Were messages that I had tried to send you But sometimes some how they were lost Messages considered It's not my will you see That drags our lives through misery Although I may be true In words that I may say Our looks I cast between our ways And still I'll tend to love you Messages considered And still I'll tend to love you Messages considered Sometimes in some strange manner I'll manage to tell you Sometimes in some strange language I will let you know Sometimes in some strange manner An envelope of passages will fold Sometime in some strange meaning I will let you know I wanted to tell you But you wouldn't listen About what I meant to show Love don't glisten I will try to deliver But your voice it wasn't the same And then I turned with a kiss for you And then you disappeared in the rain Sometimes in some strange manner I'll manage to tell you Sometimes in some strange language I will let you know Sometimes in some strange manner I'll manage to tell you Sometimes in some strange language I will let you know Sometimes in some strange manner An envelope of passages will fold Sometime in some strange meaning I will let you know Return to Table of Contents TRAGEDY LIKE THESE - JUNE 28, 1990 It's always a tragedy When it happens to you one day In a darkened street Where no one hears you scream And it's another time likened to When I can't hear the words And I try to tell you That I'd wonder About what you might find there What you might find there Oh, it's a tragedy That something like this Should happen in a place like this With dust so old It doesn't stand to stand on its own two feet But it's a tragedy And we don't have to tell anyone About the tragedy No, we don't have to tell anyone Because it's times like these No one knows anybody else It's like a sea That wants to tumble down on me But, it's times like these We don't have to tell anybody No, it's times like these I promise we don't have to tell anybody Of a place like these Of a place like these Of a place like these Of a place like these And it's a tragedy We don't have to tell anybody About what we have seen It's a tragedy I should know But we don't have to tell anybody About stories that come alive by me And you know its not what I would call a mystery It's more a tragedy To see these lovers on the streets It's a tragedy We don't have to tell anybody About a tragedy like these A tragedy like these About a tragedy like these A tragedy like these Return to Table of Contents PATH - August 1, 1991 When you try to follow me Don't try so hard Because I am leading you On a path straight to my heart There wasn't a chance for you I've lead you too far Now you have invited yourself To a seat in my car Never tell me nothing That isn't a lie Because you might shake in the spot Where you lie by my side The reason for loving me Shouldn't be so clear today But, If I tell you something Resembling the truth I sure that you would break away When you try to follow me Wondering where I go It's the silence of the night That I love so The shadows roll And the moon high above It glistens on the street Small undertakers on their small small feet And the only sound you hear Is the rain that beats in my heart If you try to follow me I warn you now Don't get to close My hands may reach out one day And find the things that they like most If you try to follow me I warn you now - one more time Don't get to close My hands may reach out one day And find the things that they like most If you try to follow me Don't try too hard I may lead you on a path to my heart Return to Table of Contents GIRL LIKE YOU - August 10, 1991 Never tell me nothings real Especially the things I feel I know it's true Because I see you here I told you once I loved you then But, Now I'm not sure who you are to me Just a blemish and tears And though you now it's wonderful I know it's the way I want to feel today I know it's true I know it's the way I want to feel today I was once a boy I will always follow the boys When they call me out to go in the streets to play I tried really hard that time I tried to beat a quarter to nine But, I know you weren't home anyway And though you now it's wonderful I know it's the way I want to feel today I know it's true I know it's the way I want to feel today Never mind the tales they tell And the dust on the rocking chair Because I once belonged to a girl like you And I know it's true For a girl like you Oh. for a girl like you For a girl like you Return to Table of Contents HAT - July 30, 1991 Find me on the sideline With my shaking hands to my heart Watch me watching you With my eyes on the brim of my hat It keeps me covered It keeps me alive With a place to hide My untruthful fact With a place to find A romantic way I'd never approach you At least not today Give me a moment And I'd hide my face From the view of you And your eyes asway The brim of my hat Is a shield to my heart My hat and myself May we never part It keeps me covered It keeps me alive With a place to hide My unkind grace With a place to find A secret love Kept secret for yet Another day Return to Table of Contents SCREAMING OF THE CHILD - December 15, 1991 God knows you On the lines of the law And you wonder what the night Brings on in its cold All the creatures holding on to the moon It's the last night of starvation Until it starts anew We are the creatures finding That we aren't so different from The cannibals in the sand And you find in desperation One word to open up your hand Let the truth fly out Into the sky The only door you found out Is the door that leads in I know that you didn't want to find it I was there when you called I was dark as the night Your voice it shattered all the skylights Though I have never heard The screaming of the child In the cold air of the night I was you sometime back Now I'm tired, and I am thirsty And I am now back The only door you found out Is the door that leads in Doesn't that question everything within you The only door you found out Is the door that leads in Do you feel the strain of my sins The only door you found out Is the door that leads in I know that you didn't want to find it I was there when you called I was dark as the night Your voice it shattered all the skylights Return to Table of Contents CUT LIKE A SHADOW November 1, 1991 All of my time One more time And I'll cut you out of the picture One more time And I'll cut you with a knife Because the words I portray in this city The words you take in the dark The words they play with disaster Why couldn't they just let it go Cry on the way home tonight Cry on the way home tonight Cry on the way home I won't see you Tonight or forever Disaster It's your city Lengthens the whites in everybody's eyes Should we answer to this disaster No ones fighting anymore No loving- no holding And I never wondered Time to recall all the men Tug on my line just one more time I'll cut you with a knife like a shadow Tug on my ties one more time And I'll cut you out like a shadow Cry on the way home tonight Cry on the way home tonight Cry on the way home I won't see you Tonight or forever Disaster Won't take me The eyes I saw The shadows above standing on crows feet I didn't like the hunting call But the night is back And ever so relentlessly Your smile it disappears Your mind rolls down the street I know that violent times are coming All the troubles that I've seen before They'll be yours one day You'll wish you'd never say Cry one the way home tonight Cry one the way home tonight Cry one the way home I won't see you - Tonight or forever Return to Table of Contents A CHANGE IN THE WEATHER - September 10, 1991 You know I didn't want to tell you That you looked so remarkably well For living a life in a room With your eyes and your ears shut tight To the way of the world Listen to your heart, listen to your laughter, listen to yourself And I know the purulent, trivial things you say Aren't meant to hurt anyway Every voice you've ever spoken to Was with a hand in your mouth When you didn't want to hear the truth And now you turn to me And say 'Oh what have I done for myself yesterday'? You look at me With your typical eye Why couldn't I pry my way inside And I wonder why you came yesterday When I was alone.. And I liked it so And I wonder why you didn't leave me When the glass ran out of the drink you'd swore You'd given up back in 1984 Your voice it crackle And between the weaving you'd say You don't give a damn about the way that they play With your mind at race And the rules you set You wonder why your living in a place like this But you are the one who has the final say So don't give up this game It's not a game anyway So, come to me and let me open your heart Let me open your mind Let me open your sky Listen to the way the leaves rustle in the street They weren't there oh yesterday Cause a change in the weather Beats a house full of laughter Any any day If you wanted to be what you wanted anyway Who really knew what you didn't say to me yesterday In that room so careful Return to Table of Contents I KNOW THAT I'M AFRAID February 23, 1992 Oh.. time to go It's four A.M. And I'm about to float Come to me and hold me in your arms Don't tell me that I could ever be wrong I and you in this country The fear of life has gone such a long way And all my hopes and fears They disappear into my dreams Oh.. the sooner you know You never said goodbye to me That lonely time For you to say You never played those desperate games I and you - the tears we share in twos I don't like the game you played So give it up - I'm starting to play that way Don't you ever think that when I don't show up The games are up When I don't show up The games are up Coming home for such a long time I know, I know, I know Coming home for such a long time I know, I know, I know I am no man to love I know, I know, I know If you see the hand in the glove I know, I know, don't trust it Do you want to find the love I know, I know, I know If you are the one to speak I know, I know, I don't want it If you have a way to be Begin the change and I'll amuse it I want to be the one on top You always said you couldn't stop But you would take my hand I know, I know, I couldn't Return to Table of Contents ARE YOU THERE October 10, 1992 When the boys were the boys And the girls were the girls And know one really cared At the age of ten What was remarkable then Is nothing valuable now And now in our aging time we find the path together Remember the day When the friendship swayed When the strangers came And left with the rain I know that I didn't like The sound of patter by myself All we wanted was to be ourselves In this world we don't understand All we wanted was to be ourselves to death All we really wanted was to be together All we really wanted was to love each other through the years All we really need is All we really want is Are you there? Are you there? Take my hand I know I've let go a few times But you see my mind Runs down a twisted path My dreams were dreams And now they are not what they seemed And my reality has come to me All we really want is All we really need is Are you there? Are you there? All we really want is All we really need is love Are you there? Are you there? All we wanted was to be ourselves In this world we don't understand All we wanted was to be ourselves to death All we really wanted was to be together All we really wanted was to love each other through the years All we really need is All we really want is love Are you there? Are you there? Return to Table of Contents THAT BOTTOM LINE Nov 8, 1992 Answer the voices That appear to run together Answer the question For the sake of a reason How shall we say That bottom line lies inside your mind Now don't reason No one needs your heart Count on leaving tears in your heart Your travels have given you That the moon it shines for no one Though the words were said No one heard them And you wonder to yourself Was it worth it? And though I know I wouldn't look down into my mind Take your hand and reach out for the skies A second to see your life I can hear the words I can smell the sand I can feel the earth I can feel the world I can feel the world Return to Table of Contents CHILD (IN HIS HANDS) - November 7, 1992 He was a child He didn't understand He was the time When all the children danced He was a child All the people told him to find a life The rain it begged to come down As he began to smile At the pointing of fingers He was a child He didn't understand In time he wouldn't want your hand He was a child He didn't understand He didn't know what was in his hands Given him all the love Though he didn't understand Though he was so alone No one took pride to walk side by side in the sand He was a child He didn't understand In time he wouldn't want your hand He was a child He didn't understand He didn't know what was in his hands He was a child He didn't understand No one took a hold of his hand Return to Table of Contents DRAGON'S NIGHT (THIS IS LIFE) November 8, 1992 Taken by a dragon's heart Running the night in the dark with your hand stretched out Find a friend before you have to shout The one on the run is the one in the game never listening You were the one who came that day the dragon came Say your prayers This is life Say your prayers This is the dragon's night I know the time - it's in my hand I know the girl - she's in my bed I know the people - they're on my doorstep I know the hectic life only in my own way I know the finding of desperation The protection of my only real love And you always revolved Take a hold of this package And treat it as if it were you own kin Take a hold onto a romantic Because this is life on the barest of skin Finding danger - so much danger in the night The lovers on the bench side are the strangers Not the dragon that runs through the night Say your prayers This is life Say your prayers This is the dragon's night Under the water By the bridge You were walking in my niche No hesitation to trought upon I grab my hope and I run Into the valley - into the parkside Down the alley - into the dark lights Through the hesitation of my gun You were the next to.... Return to Table of Contents BEFRIEND - March 1, 1992 Structured on lies I remember too well On days of learning gone In the thoughts you were thinking And I know where you've gone At times I'd always remember I knew it wouldn't be long The shining eyes can tell me Where your fingers have gone wrong And I saw your fingers Slip from the barrel of the gun It's you that I admire today So, why don't you befriend me It's in you I find a remarkable scare So, why don't you befriend me It's you I see my enemy So, why don't you befriend me I was close to the shore On the edge of the land I thought I could reach your hand Even if you think I might drown Why don't you befriend me Even if you hate my smile Why don't you befriend me Even if I seem a little strange Why don't you befriend me Even if you think I'm queer Why don't you befriend me Even if you think I'm steel Why don't you befriend me And I know that I wonder Far too much in my mind The times I led into sin I live to live for today I would stand in a shower Of hope and hatred no more And the people here don't seem to know That I am not alone Grasping in your attache case You pull out an ugly face It's through you I find that I am scared So, why don't you befriend me It's your smile I see today So, why don't you befriend me I was close to the shore On the edge of the land I thought I could reach your hand Return to Table of Contents COME TO ME - August 31, 1992 Don't call me too late I've seen our last fate Growing to hate Just watch me make a mistake Oh, I know that there won't be a time When I cross the line between troubled and fine I was waiting there I thought you would call Making a waste Just call it all off Nervous to find a word to say Never finding the one thing That I had saved And it's way too late Don't wait Don't hesitate You left enough time there For heaven and hell to mate Please come Please come Please come to me Please say my name Please find a way Please let me count on you today You said you'd never leave me The words were easy for you But what we are dealing with now Is a regretful mistake Return to Table of Contents IN THE ARMS OF EACH OTHER June 1, 1992 Oh glorious moon Shine in the darkness of the night She said in the heat of the moment To break free at last To be so alive You are the time that I set my life to You are the one above who knows no other And you in my dreams, in my hopes It is your eyes that I see I know where he walks When you yield to his odd sized hands We want each other In the unknown may lie are better deed Strong forever The moon shines bright for us Look deep into the skies Were in fact I see your eyes In the heat of the night It is in the arms that we find each other In the heat of the night It is in the arms that we find each other Return to Table of Contents EYES BY WAY OF STARLIGHT - Nov 8, 1992 The star in the shining lights Dancing freely to midnight With the stars in your eyes You send me a listless message Come to me and show me your feelings The stars that shine - nothing lights But you angel You know I am where you are for the moment A million miles away I can't wait any longer angel By midnight By midnight Your shining eyes come to me By midnight, by midnight You've got to burn that candle Come to me Can't you see there's no problem You're eyes are calm, shining down There is no other starlight in heaven Because your eyes they are so beautiful Because your mind reaches out to me Ohhh... Out to me Hold me down if I must dance alone In the passing of time you'll know I can't be wrong Though the reasoning is so drastically unveiled Your divine absolutes have been outgrown By midnight, by midnight Your shining eyes come to me By midnight, by midnight You've got to burn that candle Return to Table of Contents EVERYTHING YOU DIDN'T SAY - February 19, 1992 Dreaming to remember The love we had and the love we saw Holding on to memories They were memories not the truth we sought Now though we realize That we aren't just human It casts us with great confusion Realize that we're not so perfect Save yourself from this painful illusion I know you, you know me The time swayed, remember? How special on this occasion Rush forward one great aspiration I know you, you know me I know that we could be so happy On this day, I remember everything that you didn't say I see peoples' eyes As they realize That I wasn't anyone - special In the darkened age With a refined hero That boils our rage Even though I know your name I can't think of who you are So tell me anyway You say you were aware I'm sure you were But, I don't feel the life Flowing in these veins I know you, you know me The time swayed, remember? How special on this occasion Rush forward one great aspiration I know you, you know me I know that we could be so happy On this day, I remember everything that you didn't say You rose through the floor You wanted of me A pair of broken arms But my arms are crossed With my pure form melting away In the shine shade In the moon haze All the voices say Your going to be the one to pay Return to Table of Contents SHAME WITHIN YOU - September 9, 1992 Flowers have closed facing the evening side All the strangers have gone Lovers walking down on the lane Never finding nothing wrong I am you in a stranger's thoughts Close the door and handle the key Finally realizing what you've done to me I wondered why you shame me so in this cold I wondered why you find yourself so unpredictable You've seen the final days Clutching the chains around your wrists Oh you've never said no But you've never said yes Close your eyes and find the truth Why do you shame me so All the truth your holding onto Why do you shame me so Like a rose petal fallen to the floor Why do you shame me so A coolness hung beneath a shadow Why do you shame me so A whispered hand over the telephone Why do you shame me so A greeting card from some stranger unknown Oh in the dear recession I and you alone The game is over But why do we still have Each other's tokens Pieces are falling Pieces of viewing distinction Pieces are falling In my hands they slip to the floor Down on my hesitation No one can find me now Down on my biggest fear of life Is the fear to be loved Return to Table of Contents THORN IN MY EVERY WHISPER May 5, 1992 Tell me what the whispers were for And about the note that fell to the floor As I came home this evening after midnight You felt so sorry But I know your not so bent I wondered why you even bothered to let me find out You were running away A child in dismay I was the one to tell Your fear I knew too well But times won't linger on every word that you say I won't let you for another day A thorn in my every whisper You were the one to say I am too torn to leave The parting of my serenade Thron in my every whisper You twisted so well And I - I walked the city street last night Your hand which usually met mine wasn't there The sun it shined without your eyes reflection The moon so high above Your words echoed in the distant breeze Does my hand not touch you In your dreams when your by yourself Or are you in the arms of another I know too well A thorn in my every whisper You were the one to say I am too torn to leave The parting of my serenade Thron in my every whisper You twisted so well Return to Table of Contents UNIMAGINABLE ACT - Fall 1992 Don't you understand We're breaking in the circuit Destroying every moment Every time I speak Another word slips Down to the floor And under the crypt And I don't hear them Whispering words into my ear The darkness and cellos All of my fears Under the lime light and through the tears I heard you calling I heard you calling The time it stops With all of my hate And no one knows which way I can run next It's all in the mind they say Fingers upon the trigger Running underneath the crowd Hear them squabbling beneath your feet Are they the ones who are real You are a dreamer And this is the action Take it better than that You've got to live the life your given Don't you understand? 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